I sit hidden from view behind glass and plastic. I watch with interest as they describe their days. I listen to them joke, listen to them talk, and listen to them insult. They don't see or notice me. I have remained hidden from their view. I attempt to become a little more visible. I peek from my spot. No one notices me. They go on talking. I reveal a little bit more of myself. Only one notices me though. He attempts to start a conversation with me. I reject it. He knows nothing about me. So why must pretend I'm his best friend? Pretending is not what I'm looking for. Somebody who is straightforward and honest is what I'm seeking. Having no luck, I reveal a little bit more. This time I receive a few to question about me. I reject them also, because they are fake and pretending. They attempt to enthrall me. It doesn't work. I shall try again tomorrow.
I came back. Why, I'm not sure. But I have. I was enchanted with the way they speak, the way they act, and the way they are. I wish I could be like them, happy and carefree. But I know I can't. I was gifted with being able to see through them. It makes me mad. Why couldn't I have been blessed with ignorance? Why must I sit and watch them talk so carefree about the world? While they play and have fun. I must think and worry. I put aside all questions. I start to watch them again. So ignorant yet so interesting. They pick up from where they left off yesterday. I attempt to reveal all of myself today. It doesn't work. I can't do it. I receive a couple of comments. A person asks for me to join them. I shall try. But I can't. I don't know how to react with them the right way. I decide to leave before angry sits in. Why can't I just be accepted for who I am?
I attempted again today. I decide to try a new spot, to watch a new crowd. They act the same. They talk the same, joke the same, and insult the same. Same shit different people. I debate with myself about giving up. But I notice something different. Someone new. I attempt to converse with them. I notice how they try to test me. Trying to see if I'm the same as the others. They notice that I'm not. They decide to talk to me. I have finally met a person like me. I can now go on knowing that no matter what. I am not alone. And if you are wondering who that person is. It's you. Thank you.